Such country India but still I am missing

 

Posted on 25 Apr 2016 20:00 in ASKSiddhiのひとりごと by Yoko Deshmukh

Leaving India every time reminds me of the thought about "what is the nationality and what is the home."



*London Muffin bakery & cafe in Pune,
run by Korean; they are the modern age of voyagers.

India is full of inconveniences, misunderstanding, misconceptions, mismanagements, mistakes, shortcomings, incomprehension, illiteracies, lack of imagination, lack of thought, and full of many other deficiencies one can not completely analyse or accept. 

Being a Japanese living in India for more than 13 years but being like a drop of oil in the water that can never be merged with the country's culture, I still feel like it is just my sojourn and someday I would move to another ideal land of hope where I can feel at home better. Frustrated by the poor supply of daily utility is not too big deal. The issue is that I am the person who has lived India for a long enough but does not have a sound interest in the country, even if I am running ASKSiddhi for the equal number of years. 

Now I am out of India temporarily for about two months. Alas, I start missing that so-called "chaos" already. Maybe because Japan, the place now I am temporary staying is no longer my country of the dream I used to feel (or I used to miss) long years back when started living in India; although it is "my country of origin," I do not feel like I belong to Japan either. It seems that as compared with Japan, India occupies a better place in my heart. It seems that the condition of India, such an unorganised, has become "normal" to me. 

It maybe a too big dream but someday, I believe the people in the world will lose their nationalities and go back to be just "people," as our great ancestors did. Till then, I will keep looking for my place of dream, at least as my life continues and as India allows me to stay.






About the author

Yoko Deshmukh   (日本語 | English)         
インド・プネ在住歴10年以上の英日・日英フリーランス翻訳者、デシュムク陽子(Yoko Deshmukh)が運営しています。2003年9月30日からインドのプネに住んでいます。

ASKSiddhi is run by Yoko Deshmukh, a native Japanese freelance English - Japanese - English translator who lives in Pune since 30th September 2003.



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